I dont think I will ever get over my moms death?

Today was my nineteenth birthday and it got me thinking a little. My mom died of cancer when I was fifteen. I really dont like to talk about it and I try to ignore or change the subject when people talk about their parents in a conversation. I just dont want people judging me or treating me different becuase of it. I have realized that this by far the toughest thing I have to gone through in my life and always will be. I know I will never be able to get over her death. It will just be something that I will have to live with. I usually never get angry or pissed off about anything but this is the one thing that makes me upset.